New Chapter in Life

Hello, Assalamualaikum.
I'm back again. Alhamdulillah I scored 9As in my previous SPM. Thank you for all the duas you've been giving me. Now, I'm preparing stuff for my uni life. Asasi je baru. I got into the University of Malaya whoot whoot ! Honestly? I'm very scared of what the future holds for me. Will I have many friends? Will I stop being so awkward? Will I gain the confidence to have male friends for god sake? I want to study and learn properly now. no more procrastinating or laziness or main-main. One thing I worry about is financial. I really don't want to burden my mom with all the money that I'm gonna spend in uni. But, what can I do I still ain't got enough money for myself. education is so expensive I swear to god. This will be my first time being so far from home and mummy. I don't know how I'm gonna deal with that but we'll see. I guess that's it for now. Till next time, xoxo

2019

Well hi invisible humans.

It's already February of 2019. Man I've wasted so many times during those last 2 months. Next month means RESULTSSS. Man, I'm so scared. I'm just so scared. Sumpah tak confident dengan result SPM kali ni. Rasa macam tak dapat nak capai. rasa macam semua yang aku dapat selama ni istidraj. Aku ni susah nak bersyukur sebelum ni. Aku takut kalau Allah tarik nikmat aku bila-bila. Aku nak sambung ambik dentistry. Insyaallah, hoping for the best. I've given up on being a doctor. I just don't feel that passionate for doctor. Something was lacking in me. I'm sorry mummy. I couldn't be like kakak. I'm not good enough to be a doctor. Tapi kalau Anis ada rezeki in dentistry, I promise to work my best on it. Life hasn't been that bad nowadays. I still miss papa. Banyak ujian Allah bagi dekat mak aku dengan family aku, tapi alhamdulillah mak aku stay kuat demi family. Aku tahu dia letih tapi aku tak mampu nak tolong certain stuff. Like i really wanna help her about financial but I myself got no money. I try not to splurge money on useless things. Money does not grow on trees kids.