Happy Birthday Kakak!!

Kak, I'm sorry for writing this while crying. I'm so sorry. Dah 3 tahun kakak tak celebrate birthday. Kakak you are going to wake up right? I'm still waiting for that day. I miss you so much. So much that it hurts. When you wake up and you read this, you gonna laugh at me right? I don't care you can laugh until your tummy hurts. Because I miss your smile so much. Remember you used to squeeze me so you can lay down on the couch too? Now, I will give you the whole couch. Remember when you always ask me to cook some food for you? I'll cook everything. I heard that if you truly wish for something, it will come true. I wish that you'll wake up very soon and you're gonna be there when I'm receiving the result for PT3. Ya Allah, I truly truly wish for this. Please. Kak, Anis dah nak 15 tahun. Kak nik dah nak 20. Time flew so fast. I don't like the fact that I was so young and didn't know how appreciate the time that I've had with you. Kak, Iyaad dah besar kak, Kalau kakak sihat mesti kakak 'pulah' Iyaad sebab naughty. Kak I remember that you asked me to buy you a 'air kotak' when I went to the cafe. When I come back, you're not there. You've already gone to the labour room. If I came earlier, I would have met you. If I came earlier. Kak, I may not have said the words often to you, but I love you. I really really love you. No one can replace you. No one. You're the only kakak. There's no other kakak. I miss calling your. I miss messaging you on Facebook whether you come home or not today. I miss your nagging. I miss watching you eating 'air asam dgn belacan'. "One day we'll realise the little things in life were actually the big ones.-anonymous" That quotes are the one that you put on your Instagram bio. When I read that I cried because it's so true. Kak, Happy 30th Birthday!! I miss you and I love you so much. Anis sayang kakak sangat-sangat. Hugs and kisses.

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Your not so little sister.

Stress,Pressure,Tension

Have you ever feel like you just want to die?
Like you want to get out of this world for a while??
It hurts..
Nobody appreciates what I do.
Everything I do is wrong.
People always blame on me.
When I have some time to put my mind on ease..
Someone would just interfere my time.
I don't know why but..it just gets on my nerves.
There's no one that I could freely let out all of my problems and worries.
Why me?
Why not anyone else?
I don't want to push myself.
I already know it's gonna hurts if I did that.
But someone will push me,
I just want to scream out at them "Do I look like I can handle it??"
It's hurts,
It's really painful,
Can someone understand me?
I just need a hug and a shoulder to cry on right now but I don't have anyone.
I want someone who will say "It's going to be alright" to me.
People don't understand me.
I'm just faking my own self the whole time.
9 out of 10 times I would just broke down in the toilet or in my room.
I just hate myself.
At times I just want to lock myself in a room,crying,shouting as much as I want.
And no one will stop me.
You see me as a happy-go-lucky girl.
Actually,I'm just trying to cheer myself up.
I'm tired of tears.
HUG and COMFORTS
is the only thing I want..
I don't need
PITY

Life As an 8th Grader

It started on 11th January 2015,
It was something new to me.
New friends.
New teachers.
New class.
Let me confess something..
I don't even remember all of my teachers' and friends' name yet.
Hahahahah..
It was hard being a 8th grader actually..
I miss my childhood times.
I barely get a rest..
Homework after homework after homework.
But people said that's the way to become a successful person.
I need to bear with it.
It just a beginning.
It's going to be hard but hard is not impossible.
I better do my homeworks first or I will get scolded by my teachers tomorrow.
Byeee