Hello, Assalamualaikum.
I'm back again. Alhamdulillah I scored 9As in my previous SPM. Thank you for all the duas you've been giving me. Now, I'm preparing stuff for my uni life. Asasi je baru. I got into the University of Malaya whoot whoot ! Honestly? I'm very scared of what the future holds for me. Will I have many friends? Will I stop being so awkward? Will I gain the confidence to have male friends for god sake? I want to study and learn properly now. no more procrastinating or laziness or main-main. One thing I worry about is financial. I really don't want to burden my mom with all the money that I'm gonna spend in uni. But, what can I do I still ain't got enough money for myself. education is so expensive I swear to god. This will be my first time being so far from home and mummy. I don't know how I'm gonna deal with that but we'll see. I guess that's it for now. Till next time, xoxo
Thursday, June 13, 2019
Monday, February 4, 2019
2019
Well hi invisible humans.
It's already February of 2019. Man I've wasted so many times during those last 2 months. Next month means RESULTSSS. Man, I'm so scared. I'm just so scared. Sumpah tak confident dengan result SPM kali ni. Rasa macam tak dapat nak capai. rasa macam semua yang aku dapat selama ni istidraj. Aku ni susah nak bersyukur sebelum ni. Aku takut kalau Allah tarik nikmat aku bila-bila. Aku nak sambung ambik dentistry. Insyaallah, hoping for the best. I've given up on being a doctor. I just don't feel that passionate for doctor. Something was lacking in me. I'm sorry mummy. I couldn't be like kakak. I'm not good enough to be a doctor. Tapi kalau Anis ada rezeki in dentistry, I promise to work my best on it. Life hasn't been that bad nowadays. I still miss papa. Banyak ujian Allah bagi dekat mak aku dengan family aku, tapi alhamdulillah mak aku stay kuat demi family. Aku tahu dia letih tapi aku tak mampu nak tolong certain stuff. Like i really wanna help her about financial but I myself got no money. I try not to splurge money on useless things. Money does not grow on trees kids.
Saturday, March 17, 2018
Everything is all good when it comes to him.
You know what, I don't believe it when people say parents don't have their favourite child.
You gotta be kidding me.
No matter what, she still choose him over everyone.
Dialah yang paling bijak.
Dialah yang paling bagus.
LIKE EVERYTHING IS ALL ABOUT HIM.
Bila dia buat hal cari yang lain.....
Yang lain tolong dengar...
Bukan apa.. nak kasih sayang yang sama jugak.
Asyik dia dapat kelebihan.
Semua benda dia buat nampak baik.
Buat salah sikit dekat 'him' macam buat dosa besar.
She goes on and on like kesian dia, nanti lapar bla bla bla
Come on la dia dah besar, kawin ada isteri apa bagai.
Sampai bila nak tanggung.
Bila dia nak pandang orang lain jugak.
Senangkan jadi everyone's favourite.
Semua dia betul and semua orang lain salah.
Aku yang nak SPM macam dia yang nak SPM.
Lebihkan dia.
Takpala aku kena belajar independent.
Last2 aku sorang jugak atas dunia ni.
Monday, February 22, 2016
FACTS ABOUT ME
1. I'm the youngest in the family. (shocking)
2. I'm not thin. (I know I'm fat)
3. I want to be a doctor
4. I want to further my studies in England or Ireland or Australia
5. I've got a lot of hobbies. Drawing, baking, dancing etc.
6. I love to learn new things. I learnt to crochet, macrame, embroidery etc
7. I hate sports
8. I used to be a big K-POP fan.
7. My current favourite artists/bands are One Direction, 5 Seconds of Summer, Little Mix
8. I never went to any concert.
9. My birthday is on 13th April
10. Born in 2001
11. I love makeups
12. I have stage fright
13. I hate bugs.
14. I love cats
15. When I was a kid, I used to have allergic to necklaces that aren't gold. My neck will become red.
16. I don't drink fresh milk.
17. I love Mummy's food. Yumm Sambal Tumis Ikan Bilis
18. I don't have any interest in boyfriends.
19. I hate fake people.
20. I had a surgery when I was 11
21. I went to London,Ireland and Paris when I was 10. It was the best week ever.
22. I love chocolates. Anything with chocolate, I will surely eat it.
23. I love Bolognese
24. I love Pizza
25. I still have a pillow that I've had since I was 4?
To Be Continued....
2. I'm not thin. (I know I'm fat)
3. I want to be a doctor
4. I want to further my studies in England or Ireland or Australia
5. I've got a lot of hobbies. Drawing, baking, dancing etc.
6. I love to learn new things. I learnt to crochet, macrame, embroidery etc
7. I hate sports
8. I used to be a big K-POP fan.
7. My current favourite artists/bands are One Direction, 5 Seconds of Summer, Little Mix
8. I never went to any concert.
9. My birthday is on 13th April
10. Born in 2001
11. I love makeups
12. I have stage fright
13. I hate bugs.
14. I love cats
15. When I was a kid, I used to have allergic to necklaces that aren't gold. My neck will become red.
16. I don't drink fresh milk.
17. I love Mummy's food. Yumm Sambal Tumis Ikan Bilis
18. I don't have any interest in boyfriends.
19. I hate fake people.
20. I had a surgery when I was 11
21. I went to London,Ireland and Paris when I was 10. It was the best week ever.
22. I love chocolates. Anything with chocolate, I will surely eat it.
23. I love Bolognese
24. I love Pizza
25. I still have a pillow that I've had since I was 4?
To Be Continued....
Saturday, February 6, 2016
Things Guys Do That I Find Attractive
Okay, okay
I got it.
And no I don't have a boyfriend and not even a crush (what a life)
No, I don't want to date. (unless he's Harry Styles, Ashton Irwin, Luke Hemmings, Dave Franco and the list goes on and on)
It seems foreign to me
These are few things that I found attractive when guys do it.
Who? When? How?
The guys listed above did it.
I don't know, a week ago? a month ago?
In my dreams, youtube(for life), Twitter.
1. When he rolled up his sleeves ( OMG OMG OMG )
2. When he clench his jaw ( HARREH STIELSSSS )
3. When he pushed his hair back
4. Smirking ( OH GOD FUDGE FUDGE FUDGE )
5. Smiling ( melts)
6. When he wear white shirt with a jean or a dress pant. ( BYE )
7. Good eye contact is everything ladies
8. When he cook.
9. When he smells good. ( NOT IN PERVERTED WAY )
10. When he is good with babies (MAH HEARTT FATHERLY AF )
11. When he leans against the doorframe ( CALM DOWN )
12. Intelligence is important (FYI)
13. When he calls you 'love' ( DAMN YOU 1D )
14. Accents ( EXCUSE ME FOR A WHILE)
15. Morning voice ladies and gentlemen (HAZZAAAA )
That's all for today !!
I got it.
And no I don't have a boyfriend and not even a crush (what a life)
No, I don't want to date. (unless he's Harry Styles, Ashton Irwin, Luke Hemmings, Dave Franco and the list goes on and on)
It seems foreign to me
These are few things that I found attractive when guys do it.
Who? When? How?
The guys listed above did it.
I don't know, a week ago? a month ago?
In my dreams, youtube(for life), Twitter.
1. When he rolled up his sleeves ( OMG OMG OMG )
2. When he clench his jaw ( HARREH STIELSSSS )
3. When he pushed his hair back
4. Smirking ( OH GOD FUDGE FUDGE FUDGE )
5. Smiling ( melts)
6. When he wear white shirt with a jean or a dress pant. ( BYE )
7. Good eye contact is everything ladies
8. When he cook.
9. When he smells good. ( NOT IN PERVERTED WAY )
10. When he is good with babies (MAH HEARTT FATHERLY AF )
11. When he leans against the doorframe ( CALM DOWN )
12. Intelligence is important (FYI)
13. When he calls you 'love' ( DAMN YOU 1D )
14. Accents ( EXCUSE ME FOR A WHILE)
15. Morning voice ladies and gentlemen (HAZZAAAA )
That's all for today !!
I'm Back!
Hi beauties,
I'm back.
I'm already in Year 9, that means PT3 is nearing.
God, I am so nervous for PT3, There are so many what 'if's playing in my mind.
What if I failed?
What if I can't be a doctor?
What if I disappointed my parent?
What if I can't go to oversea as I dreamed?
What if..
No one understands me, though.
Nowadays, I get a lot of home works from teachers.
I always got back from school late because of extra classes.
Although it's tiring I have to endure it.
Nothing is easy in this world.
Nothing is free in this world.
When I was in Year 6, I thought it was a busy year because of UPSR.
Innocent me.
Ya Allah, I'm so scared.
Please give me strength.
I don't want to fail.
Never..
Mummy, Papa,
If you're reading this and I already got my PT3 results,
Did I get straight A's?
Did I fail?
I'm so sorry if I failed.
The questions must have been so difficult..
And if I get straight A's, Alhamdulillah.
I hope you're happy.
And never forget that I love you so muchhhh..
I'm back.
I'm already in Year 9, that means PT3 is nearing.
God, I am so nervous for PT3, There are so many what 'if's playing in my mind.
What if I failed?
What if I can't be a doctor?
What if I disappointed my parent?
What if I can't go to oversea as I dreamed?
What if..
No one understands me, though.
Nowadays, I get a lot of home works from teachers.
I always got back from school late because of extra classes.
Although it's tiring I have to endure it.
Nothing is easy in this world.
Nothing is free in this world.
When I was in Year 6, I thought it was a busy year because of UPSR.
Innocent me.
Ya Allah, I'm so scared.
Please give me strength.
I don't want to fail.
Never..
Mummy, Papa,
If you're reading this and I already got my PT3 results,
Did I get straight A's?
Did I fail?
I'm so sorry if I failed.
The questions must have been so difficult..
And if I get straight A's, Alhamdulillah.
I hope you're happy.
And never forget that I love you so muchhhh..
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